Lifetalk

Have you ever heard Life talking to you? Through radio...via TV...or the book you are reading...might be the illness you have...maybe the movie you are watching...or most randomly, through people and conditions.
Sometimes you want to do something, you try hard, but it just fails. And the universe does not support you, though you wanted with all your heart. Credits to Coelho.
And then it just happened. Though you did not crave for it. You were simply ripe enough, you were merely ready.
It is an inner harmony we strive for, and then it comes, sits on our eyes and hopefully stays.
Sometimes you head off somewhere, and all the traffic lights are red, and the streets are jammed, and the air is stiff. And on other occasions you find parking on Abovyan at 3.00 P.M. on a weekday. Just because Life wants you to do what you are doing- and everything is easy breezy, every obstacle just evaporates.
And some people are just obstacles, they seem our destination, but they ain't even transportation to get where we are meant to end up. And there are fuel-people, who appreciate, who push us to be better, who give us the air in the bones. And it is so right with them, just right is how you feel.
The right comes with perfect timing. Life knows better. It talks wiser. It prompts softer. We need to listen when Life talks.

I love the smell of cigarettes from your fingers,
I love the way your eyes soothe any pain.
I see the way you calm my beasts and dramas,
I watch my words open your heart wider.

You call me special, you see through all my heartbreaks,
And still there is no pressure, there’s no trauma.

He is exactly what I wanted him to be-
His smile, his wit, his tie, his lips.
He has projected all I craved to see-
The strength, the ethics, the morality.

He makes me feel mature, he makes me move
From where I am to where I wanna be.
He is like me - forever learning new,
He has the truth I always want to see.

He meets my highest expectations without trying,
He holds my future full of fun and crying.
He is the face I saw in dream once,
He is my man with who I am up to dance.

You are the sand on the coast.
I dip my fingers into it, I feel it, and then it is gone, nothing in my palm.
You give me a love like electricity.
You lighten me, you burn me, and then you leave me in the darkness of routine without you.

You are like some wine with ice, a good dry rose with ice.
You freshen me, just for a moment, to leave me in heat waves and sweat.
You are the chocolate in the morning of diet cheat day,
I crave you, but I am afraid of the pleasure being momentary and short.

You are like parking downtown on a weekend-
Might be loads, might be none- never know.
You are like an open-air swimming pool on an August day
Just too close, too available, still nowhere.

Ինձնով ոգեշնչված մի պոեմ գրես,
Ու երբեք ոչ ոքի ցույց չտաս:
Ինձ երգեր, շատ տողեր դու ձոնես,
Բայց գաղտնի, քեզ համար դու պահես:

Մի լարված երկուշաբթի լինի, հենց գործիդ ժամանակ
Ցասումդ, պրոբլեմդ իմ անունով փակես:
Ինձ հիշես, հանդարտվես, խախանդվես,
Սիրտդ թեթւանա, հայացքդ պսպղա:

Մի ուրբաթ իրիկուն էլ գործից տուն գալիս լինես,
Ճամփեն ազատ լինի, միտքդ հանգիստ լինի,
Ինձ հիշես ու ժպտաս, աչքիցդ մի պեծ ընկնի,
Ու ղեկդ ամուր սեղմես ու հոգսդ ուսիցդ ընկնի:

Ես քե հարցերի պատասխանը լինեմ,
Էդ մի հատ պակասող էակդ լինեմ,
Լինեմ հասարակ, բոլորի նման լինեմ,
Բայց քեզ բավական, քեզ հերիք լինեմ:

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Դու իմ սպասածից էլ լավն ես. ես քեզ հարցեր չունեմ,
Դու իսկական, հոգատար ես, ես էլ` ձևեր չունեմ,
Դու ինձ սանձող փոթորիկն ես. ինձ հանդարտեցնում, սփոփում ես,
Ինձ էնքան նման ու տարբեր ես. մեկ-մեկ ոնց որ երկու կես լինենք:

Ես քո մտքերի պատասխանն եմ, քո անցած սերերի ուրվականն եմ ես,

Քո ուժը ամրացնող ու թուլությունը գրկողն եմ ես,
Չեմ հարցնի, չեմ տանջի, չեմ վազի, չեմ թողնի քեզ,
Կնայեմ, կփայլեմ, քեզ համար սիրուն կլինեմ միշտ ես:

Ինձ գրկես, թուլանամ: Քեզ գրկեմ ամրանամ:
Ինձ նայես, լիանաս: Քեզ նայեմ, դատարկվեմ:
Ես ապրեմ ինձ համար, քո կողքին ապրեմ ես:
Ինձ լռեցնող, ինձ սաստող, իմ ուզած ժայռն ես,
Քեզ բախվեմ, հանդարտվեմ:Դու խոսես, ես լսեմ:
Քեզ լսողն եմ ես:

I have found the love of my life

I have found the love of my life..or better lives...or whatever. I have found it.
It took me a couple of frogs, a couple of prince charmings, a couple of knights, and a couple of horses. Friends can break your heart, too. Why did I start this?
Ah, yes, it took me a lot to find the love of my life. Though I knew this was gonna happen, and I was gonna find the perfect relationship I was handmade for, the one and only truly appreciative feeling. It took me heartbreaks- equal amounts on both sides. It took me despairs. It took me happiness. It took me laughter. It took me tears. But I am happy to have found it.
Love of my life has always been there waiting for me to throw a glance at it, to notice it, to take it into my life, to accept it, to cherish it, to appreciate it, to caress it. And now it's there. Thanks to the Creator, I have found it, and won't lose again...well, at least, not this lifetime.
I have found the love of my life, and it is the love I have for my life - the people in my life, the days in my year, the sparkles in my people's eyes, the luck in my heart.
I have most probably refound the love of my life- the love towards my life- the love for my life, the love of my life!

Victory Song (Dedicated to the Armenian Velvet Revolution)

I did take my step, and we did it, We walked all together so long, and we fixed it. And the hope that ignited our pupils Turned to lighthouse to guide through the darkness. We made a history, we struggled against evil, We demolished the castles of false witness, And as “I” turned into “we”, and “we”-into future, We revived, we stood up, we walked on. It’s with honks and free speech and pot banging That we claimed our right to live well. And the youth that used love as their weapon Could make all take a step and rebel. I did take my step, and we won it. The people got free in the end. We walked much through deep dirt, still we made it. The right wins, the light wins, as we live. The velvet love and compassion, no hatred Made us go through the dark and still make it. The revolution was kind, warm and emerging, And love made relovution so velvet.

April 30th
Yerevan, RA