Out of control

Being the A-student I have always been, unable to monotask, exemplary at meeting deadlines far before they arrive, I have been addicted to control all my life, cause how was I supposed to manage all my errands, jobs, lessons, meetings otherwise. I used to think, and maybe still do, that my high level of responsibility and control are my key to success both in academic and personal lives. And yet, with pregnancy came a relief, an ease, an intrinsic trust towards the universe and God's timing. I had read and heard about new moms becoming obsessed with worries, and maybe this will still hit me, but as for now, I am letting go of control - one step at a time, little by little. Maybe it is the influence of hormones, or Mel Robbins teaching us to "let them", but there is so much calmness and harmony in letting go of control, eliminating reasons to worry. I hope this feeling stays for good, becasue it feels safe and relaxed.